Wow…. you know its been awhile, when you log onto your own personal website and they have changed and updated their entire software! I don’t recognize anything! This means that I haven’t been on in so long that I never saw one notice! Sigh….
Here is it, almost another month since I last posted. I have been working 10-16 hours a day, every day! I am so drained…just when you think that your day is going bad…there is always something worse. It seems like there has been a lot of death and tragedies with many people I know or friends of people I know. I really don’t want to go into details but I feel like I need to start a prayer circle for everyone in the world…how can you let everyone that they are being prayed for and thought about?
Anyway…. so …. yeah…a few updates
- I am officially one month away from moving! Yes, that means I really need to get my butt in gear. I haven’t even looked for a job yet. I think in the next two weeks I will start looking
- Menopause has kicked in like NO OTHER!!!! I kept waiting for it to happen, but it didn’t. The lupron shot didn’t really do anything this time around (despite my previous complaints, you really don’t know how bad it is until it gets worse!). Well after “spotting” for about a month and a half, I couldn’t stand it any longer. I went to my doctor and he gave me a birth control that hasn’t been produced in about 2 years. It is like old birth controls back in the 80’s. Very strong, non of this “low” stuff! Well, being on this birth control has caused the menopause symptoms to hit FULL FORCE!! Out of the 34 symptoms that are associated with it, I have 27 of them..yeah…27. I looked online to see what you could do to “mute” the symptoms…all it says is stuff like “try hormone therapy” and all I want to do is yell at the computer and say, “Thats the whole reason I am in this mess!!!!!”. I just have to remind myself that I did this to myself… nothing I can do now. i only have about a week and a half left of the heavy hormones and then go back to my regular birth control. I will let you know how it goes.
- I haven’t been able to find a ENT specialist but I really need to find one soon. Besides me leaving and not having insurance, my septum has shifted so bad, that zig zags and now is blocking both nostrils. Yeah, ask me how fun it is to breath! (Especially with my allergies being escalated because of the menopause)
- I no longer exist at work, or as I like to put it, I am now “Incognito”. Basically what that means, I have given my normal job away and am now doing special projects. Some times I don’t mind not existing but I do miss certain things, like doing Bronco’s recipes. The Bronco’s have been my baby since I started at EPI. I opened Invesco back in 2001. I watched the menu and processes change over the years, being a big part of it, from the kitchen, to liquor and sales. I feel like its grown up and moved out of the house. I think I have empty nest syndrome…. sigh….
- My company is gearing up for the DNCC coming up next month…its a little nuts. On a single day we need over 350 staff! How do you hire people to work just one day?
- I am officially done with Acutane. I am really glad that I did it. My skin is doing REALLY well and I haven’t had a big cyst on my face in months. I have to pass one more pregnancy test in 30 days, just to make sure I am not pregnant (because the medication is so harmful to babies) and then I am done!
- I really am out enjoying life. I am still going strong with my cognitive therapy. I constantly remind myself, “Forgive and let go” .. I have continued to be aware and “listen” to what I am thinking or when my emotions “flare” up.
I think that about sums up everything. I am now going to take breather this weekend and then update the rest of my website ( I have SO MANY pictures to add, but it takes so long to edit them all!)
Until then….