Hello new year!
I have been debating for the past week and a half about how I wanted to start off the new year on my blog. Do I recap the past 12 months highlighting the best of each month? Do I discuss the most recent events that even though they are somewhat downers or just about my day?
I decided to stop analyzing it in my brain and just write because we are already two weeks in and I’ve done nothing but procrastinate. (So much so that this should have been posted over the weekend.)
* Last month was hard on me and my mother due to her having surgery the day after Christmas. I was stressing about the pre and post operation including how to keep the household running. Well luckily we all survived. My mother is doing better, still not at 100% but definitely on the road to recovery.
* Through the stress of the surgery, holidays and my nephews recent wedding, I have never felt closer to my extended family. I’m not sure if it was the change of being on my new medication that has changed my perception, but prior to this, I always felt like an outcast. There was family drama-rama before I was born and always felt like the past caused me to be a black sheep, or just not 100% welcomed into the group of my older siblings despite all being connected by our father.
* As a refresher, I have 3 older siblings that I didn’t grow up with (two step sisters and half brother). With that brings my 10 nieces and nephews ranging from 32-12 years of age.
* I have grown close to my older nieces, even if it was just through social media it has been nice to get to know them on a closer level. More about their day-to-day life than just a polite standard of “how you doing” on whatever holiday we are celebrating. It is like our friendship from our childhood has been rekindled; it reminds me of the days of being kids playing around in sprinklers in our swimsuits and hanging out on the floor between two twin beds talking about which Sweet Valley High book we recently read.
* Then there are my sisters and brothers. So much love – I can’t even describe it without tearing up. I have come to the realization that despite us growing up with the same father, we grew up with different versions (due to life changing events) that have created different outcomes. I’ve come up with the theory that there have been four versions; 2 my older siblings grew up with and I’d say they I got version 2.5, and my little brother got 3&4. I’m really hoping we can all get together to discuss so I can try to have a better understanding of all sides. (I picked a time and date, but hoping it does come to fruition).
* For the first time, I have felt like an actual Aunt to my youngest niece Sara. Whether it is a day outing adventure or just texting back and forth, I have enjoyed being able to get closer to her than ever before. I may not be the best role model, and still feel guilty for not spending more time with here in her younger years but I am always open and honest and available when it comes to questions or things that sometimes parents can’t answer *wink*
* Miss Neela, my puppy, has been doing well; but last Saturday we started puppy training classes. I love her to death, but we both need some discipline and instructions. I’m not consistent with words and if she doesn’t get trained, I’m not sure how much longer my sanity will sustain. (Please see my Instagram for recent doggie stunts)
* My last bit is related to this Fridays surgery. It is not a big deal as it is being performed in my doctors office using local anesthesia and not in a hospital with general anesthesia. I don’t want to talk too much about it until I have all the test results back as not to scare anyone but it does link back to this post last year.
* I am grateful for the experiences I was able to experience during 2012 and look forward to the new highs and lows that I face throughout 2013
And 2013 – let’s do this thing!!!
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